Drained

Lots of things are changing in my life right now. I can't tell where it's all going. My allergies have been making me miserable for the past couple of weeks. Bad enough I feel physically tired from not being able to breathe very well. I have also been emotionally stressed out over work, relationships, moving, and freelance work. Luckily my family was around and I got to spend a lot of great time with them. Hopefully, things will stabilize once the move is complete. I am still anxious to find out what the status is on the freelance work.

Here is a test render I did last night (just using final gather nothing fancy). I have brought my Mac Book to a couple of different coffee shops the past few days (one of the perks of getting a laptop. It's been nice to finally put some real time into a project. My portfolio hasn't been updated since college really. And now that I have over 6 years of experience, I certainly can create nicer pieces.

Gimme Sympathy

I just watched Metric's new video. I wish they'd play in Orlando sometime soon. I guess a new video probably means a new album. Which probably means they'll touring.

Beauty in Design

When I'm working on a problem, I never think about beauty. I think only how to solve the problem. But when I have finished, if the solution is not beautiful, I know it is wrong.
- R. Buckminster Fuller

This is actually true. I have noticed that finding a design flaw can sometimes be as easy as stepping back from it and looking for the irregular form. Somehow, clean solutions tend to feel balanced and beautiful.

Last night I dreamt that I was being put on some new projects at work (which is what has been happening all week in real life). I enjoy working on different things, so I've enjoyed the challenges. So, in this dream I am told that the names of the two new projects are "Karaoke Cake" and "Vomit: On-hand". These are just totally ridiculous, and I can't imagine where my mind dug these up from. I do enjoy the double meaning of "Vomit: On-hand". I just had to write those down so I can look back and laugh.

I'm Waiting...

Here's a quick sketch I did while waiting at the doctor's office this morning.

We need more power

My allergies are still kind of dragging me down. Just try to imagine Andre the Giant sitting on your chest and you'll begin to get the idea what it feels like. It was worse this weekend. Somehow, I keep finding myself with an increasing workload everyday. I am really looking forward to putting some time into this freelancing. I just need to get through the other 4 or 5 projects I am working on throughout the week. At least its a fun struggle. I guess I couldn't have picked a better time frame to be single, because I barely have any time for myself right now. I swore I'd make it to yoga tonight. I need stress release.

I've been hooked on this Franz Ferdinand song lately. I used to obsess over Matinee, now I find this one stuck in my head quite often:



Franz Ferdininad - Ulysses

Mobilizing

This is my first blog from my new laptop. I've been meaning to get one, but I wasn't crazy about spending the money when my desktop pc is only half dead. But a freelance opportunity came up, and I figured this would be the perfect time. The freelance work will pay for the laptop, so now I have the benefit of using it for the job.

This morning I dreamt that I was in school. This theme has been reccuring lately. I am wandering the hallways and I can't remember what room I am supposed to be in. I don't know if the teacher is going to realize I am gone. I don't want to get in trouble certainly. It always bothers me that I cannot even remember where I am supposed be. It occurs to me that I must have been going to this school for a long time. Why doesn't it look at all familiar?

Change

Well, I have successfully avoided posting for over a month. And it was a special month no less. I finally turned 30 (on Friday the 13th... how fitting). Being 30 doesn't feel any different, but it feels like I am supposed to be more responsible. I've been dragging my ass to the gym more often. Especially now that I am living the single life again. I can't seem to wait to get to the gym. Now I am planning a hike to Machu Picchu in May, I need to get into shape.

I have to say that everything is going well enough. I ran into my director at work today. He's like my boss' boss' boss or something. Not only did he recognize me, but he had lots of great compliments for me. I am soooo hoping a promotion is on the way. I am going to be moving soon. To a new and hopefully, low maintenance place.

I am going to try to get to the Jim Henson exhibit soon. I am dying to go with my nieces. They'll be here in no time.