Monday, April 27, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I finally started painting yesterday (in what I now refer to as "Studio B", a.k.a. "the master bedroom"). I don't remember the last time I actually took some time to paint. I sketch every so often. But it has been years since I painted. I bought a set of gouache paints when A.C. Moore went out of business. Here's my progress after a day.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Last night I set up the opaque projector I just bought. I laid out a an image of a B-25 to use for a gouache painting. I want to paint something small before I start tackling larger canvases. I can't remember the last time I painted. My plan is to finish this painting in about a week and get it into the artshow at work next week. The subject of the painting will be perfect. Here is a quick photo I took using my iPhone. So, please pardon the poor quality. I tried to sharped it in Photoshop, but there was a lot of noise.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind this weekend. I kind of didn't want to. So, I half watched it and half sat there drawing. I had watched it once before and had a hard time. I am still a bit squishy over my last break up and just didn't feel like dragging it back out to the forefront of my mind. I just tend to think about things too much and knew I'd just be reopening myself up. Oddly enough I had a dream that morning that I'd called my ex to tell her we should spend some time together and she hung up on me.
So, it was interesting to see Joel (Jim Carrey's character) talking to Clem (which was his mind's version of her and not really her). It made me think that in my own dream, my ex was my mind's interpretation of her that hung up on myself. I was also interested to see that Joel's incomplete memories were literally represented as blurs and disfigured people. It's hard not to put myself in those places.
I guess what really weighs on my mind is if I'd ever be willing to give up such memories. Would I be willing to lose the good in order to eliminate the bad? And really the goal is to remove the good memories that are so hard to let go of. The ones that are forever drawing you to the other person. Let's face it, the bad memories never leave you wanting more. I don't think I could ever do it. As much as I cling to things. They are so important to me. And when he realizes that he doesn't want to go through with it. That he fights like crazy to hold onto whatever he can. It kills me, I can absolutely feel myself going through that struggle. I think its great in the end how they've found each other again. Even though they have been reset. But then start to fight again. It's like no matter how many times they get they're minds erased, they will always be inexplicably be drawn to each other. Even if it always turns out bad. So, is it worth it for them if they always end up hurting each other?
Monday, April 13, 2009
This weekend was only a two day weekend for me. But it was pretty arduous none the less. Jeff and I spent yesterday and today clearing out the rest of Floral Dr. It's a 50 something year old house, and it shows. The electricity and water had been turned off, making it especially challenging to clean up.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Shins have just fit my mood lately. I am not sure how they've managed to turn all of my emotions into song. I've must have listened to New Slang 20 times today (and luckily enough, it is out for Rock Band today!). This is by far the best youtube video for it.
"Dawn breaks like a bull through the hall,
Never should have called
But my head's to the wall and I'm lonely.
And if you'd 'a took to me like
A gull takes to the wind.
Well, I'd 'a jumped from my tree
And I'd a danced like the king of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well.
I'm looking in on the good life I might be doomed never to find.
Without a trust or flaming fields am i too dumb to refine?
And if you'd 'a took to me like
Well I'd a danced like the queen of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well."
Ugh, I usually hate posts like this. I like including videos. I hate the posting of lyrics and the sob story. But I do like looking back on old posts and remember what I was going through at the time. And well, this just seems to capture the present.