Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind this weekend. I kind of didn't want to. So, I half watched it and half sat there drawing. I had watched it once before and had a hard time. I am still a bit squishy over my last break up and just didn't feel like dragging it back out to the forefront of my mind. I just tend to think about things too much and knew I'd just be reopening myself up. Oddly enough I had a dream that morning that I'd called my ex to tell her we should spend some time together and she hung up on me.

So, it was interesting to see Joel (Jim Carrey's character) talking to Clem (which was his mind's version of her and not really her). It made me think that in my own dream, my ex was my mind's interpretation of her that hung up on myself. I was also interested to see that Joel's incomplete memories were literally represented as blurs and disfigured people. It's hard not to put myself in those places.

I guess what really weighs on my mind is if I'd ever be willing to give up such memories. Would I be willing to lose the good in order to eliminate the bad? And really the goal is to remove the good memories that are so hard to let go of. The ones that are forever drawing you to the other person. Let's face it, the bad memories never leave you wanting more. I don't think I could ever do it. As much as I cling to things. They are so important to me. And when he realizes that he doesn't want to go through with it. That he fights like crazy to hold onto whatever he can. It kills me, I can absolutely feel myself going through that struggle. I think its great in the end how they've found each other again. Even though they have been reset. But then start to fight again. It's like no matter how many times they get they're minds erased, they will always be inexplicably be drawn to each other. Even if it always turns out bad. So, is it worth it for them if they always end up hurting each other?